Prayer for a fresh start

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for hearing me, for listening to me.

Thank you for all you've given me, from my home and my job, to my wife, to the freedom I have to live my life the way I want.

Freedom I have abused in many ways. The freedom which means I can read whatever magazines, access whatever websites, watch whatever TV and movies I like... I've abused, and chosen sex and pornography above everything else. It's become more important than going to work, spending time with my wife, or with You. The things I want to do for You, using the talents you've blessed me with, have been completely forgotten, or at best taken second place to seeking out porn. It's gradually taken over my life, and turned me into someone I don't want to be. I'm addicted, and it still draws me.

So, I'm asking firstly for forgiveness, for a fresh start. I know You will give me that, and I thank you for it.

I'm also asking for help in controlling this addicition. I've got a new plan, and a new resolve, but I need your help, your strength, to carry it through. I need the strength, day by day, to avoid seeking it out. I need to know you're there, to feel your forgiveness and your support, to help me through each day.

Thank you Lord for your grace, which means I can come back, after putting so much between us, and ask for forgiveness. And get it! Thank you Lord.

Lord, hear my prayer, be real to me again, and make me the person You want me to be.

In Jesus' name,

Amen