Epiphany
Eventually it occurred to me. The way to break the Spiral Of Despair.
In the end, my porn use was no longer a matter of 'slipping'. I consciously chose which websites I would visit, decided exactly which images I would download.
Similarly, by a conscious act of will, I broke the Spiral.
I simply decided I had given up porn. I destroyed what I had been collecting over the previous few weeks, cleared all traces of the websites I'd visited from my PC, and moved on.
In church on the first Sunday of my new found sobriety, I decided that I would live that day for God. And at that point came the true Epiphany.
For the first time since acknowledging porn was a problem, I realised that I didn't need to wait for God's forgiveness. I didn't need a record breaking sober streak, or even a clean week under my belt. Deciding to give up porn and live for God was enough. There is no probationary period. I had truly repented, and received forgiveness - instantly.
Knowing that, I have been able to get on with my life - and resume the work I was doing for God without worrying about whether or not I was worthy of it.
Thank you, Lord.
In the end, my porn use was no longer a matter of 'slipping'. I consciously chose which websites I would visit, decided exactly which images I would download.
Similarly, by a conscious act of will, I broke the Spiral.
I simply decided I had given up porn. I destroyed what I had been collecting over the previous few weeks, cleared all traces of the websites I'd visited from my PC, and moved on.
In church on the first Sunday of my new found sobriety, I decided that I would live that day for God. And at that point came the true Epiphany.
For the first time since acknowledging porn was a problem, I realised that I didn't need to wait for God's forgiveness. I didn't need a record breaking sober streak, or even a clean week under my belt. Deciding to give up porn and live for God was enough. There is no probationary period. I had truly repented, and received forgiveness - instantly.
Knowing that, I have been able to get on with my life - and resume the work I was doing for God without worrying about whether or not I was worthy of it.
Thank you, Lord.
posted by M386 at 12:42 pm
1 Comments:
That's awesome M386.
God truly accepts us where we are and as we are. We do not have to get "clean" before we come to God. The whole point is that He's the one that does the cleaning...from the inside out!
John
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