The blessing outweighs the shame.

I know, I don't normally post at weekends. I normally stay away from the PC. But today, after church, I felt I should write something. Maybe I was inspired. I was certainly blessed. And I have to write this, as kind of a thank you. Maybe, soon, I will share the rest of the story.

Porn is a terrible waste. Porn actresses have potential. They have other talents. They can be wonderful, beautiful people, they can do amazing things, be abundantly blessed by God, and in their turn be a blessing to the rest of us. They can be awesome women of God.

Shelley Lubben is one such awesome woman of God. A former porn actress, saved by the grace of God and now fighting against porn. Her story has been a particular blessing to me during what has been a tough week.

Shelley has made a difference to me, today, so much more incredible than any other porn actress has ever made, that I feel stupid even making that comparison. Without even knowing it, she has made my world a better place. She is a brilliant example of what porn actresses are really capable of.

But not if I, and people like me, keep funding the porn that drags them in and traps them.

Shelley's story, and her openness and the love she shows to those still involved in porn, has shamed me. How many more women, with her potential, have I helped to keep trapped in that lifestyle?

Well I'm not going to do that any more. From today (my 30th day without porn), for eternity, I make my promise not to support that lifestyle.

No more porn. Ever.