Procrastination
I'm having a bad day today. I've passed three weeks without P or MB, and aside from another porn dream last night, I thought it was going ok...
But today I just can't get my work head on. I desparately need to pull my finger out and get some actual work done, but... I just can't seem to get into it.
So I'm wasting time. I haven't done any porn. I haven't MB'd.
But all this procrastinating.... it's a step towards it. I can feel it.
The dream did me some good last night, because I woke up again with a fresh realisation that I was still clean, this is Day Twenty-four, and not just another Day One. I realised how bad I would feel if I did slip now.
So.
How the hell do I get my work head back on?
But today I just can't get my work head on. I desparately need to pull my finger out and get some actual work done, but... I just can't seem to get into it.
So I'm wasting time. I haven't done any porn. I haven't MB'd.
But all this procrastinating.... it's a step towards it. I can feel it.
The dream did me some good last night, because I woke up again with a fresh realisation that I was still clean, this is Day Twenty-four, and not just another Day One. I realised how bad I would feel if I did slip now.
So.
How the hell do I get my work head back on?
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