I wish I could forget stuff

like the name of the model I just googled. How stupid was that? It doesn't even matter that I didn't dive head first back into it, I still went too far. Even those little thumbnail pics are enough to remind me what I'm 'missing out on'. And naturally, now I've got an appetite for more. Grrrr.

As for why I googled this person in the first place; well, nearest I can figure, it's just conditioning. I happened to be in the house on my own, the computer was on, the thought occured to me... and I was weak enough to respond to it.

I guess I should be grateful it didn't turn ino anything worse; and pray that I can withstand the temptations that little incursion has left me with.

And then I'll start conditioning myself to do something else when I'm home alone.