Slipped again
I just slipped up again. I think I'm bored, tired and a bit frustrated at various things.
I've still not regained my ability to connect with God. And I don't know how to.
I'm too tired to think about this, yet I'm considering the possibility of going back to that porn site. Like that would achieve something.
Maybe I really don't want this enough.
How do I make myself want God more than porn?
I've still not regained my ability to connect with God. And I don't know how to.
I'm too tired to think about this, yet I'm considering the possibility of going back to that porn site. Like that would achieve something.
Maybe I really don't want this enough.
How do I make myself want God more than porn?
posted by M386 at 5:16 pm
3 Comments:
I am so sorry to hear that. You have my prayers.
I wish I could give you some ideas in answer to your question, but not having been in your situation and not knowing your background, I do not think I can.
Please keep on perservering.
Every Blessing in Christ
Matthew
I am sure you have thought about this before, but are there not programmes that can restrict your computer's access to pornographic sites?
A friend of mine has one. She was unable to access a link on my blog because it had a link to a site with an explicit image. Pretty thorough.
Every Blessing in Christ
Matthew
I do have such a piece of software running on my PC. It's fine for preventing accidental exposure to something that might trigger me, but like they say on the nicotine patch adverts: 'Willpower required'.
And when, as now, I don't have the willpower, software filters can always be bypassed if you try hard enough. (somehow I always find the willpower for that when I'm in that frame of mind.)
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