July 03, 2006

I blame Portugal

I'm having a bad day. I went and looked at some porn earlier, but I'm not really beating myself up about it - I didn't even enjoy it. I'm just annoyed at myself now.

Part of the problem is that I didn't really get into the swing of the SCF thing before I got too busy to fit it in - the lessons seemed to take a lot longer than I had expected, and messed up my working days. I obviously need to readjust my day to fit it in somewhere, but I need to clear by backlog and make sure I'm a bit further from the edge... yes, I can feel myself slipping closer to a full on porn binge. At the moment I have some control - I can turn away, but in the back of my mind, I may choose not to.

I think the heat's just messing with my head a bit. I'm pretty sure it's not really Portgual's fault.

1 Comments:

Blogger Matthew Celestine said...

I am sorry to hear that you are really struggling.

I shall pray for you.

God Bless

Matthew

3/7/06 8:34 pm  

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