Day One in context
OK, so Friday was Day One. The latest in a long line of Day Ones, stretching back to the beginning of this blog, and beyond.
So what does that mean? I'm so rubbish at recovery that I have to keep starting again? Well, maybe, if you take the narrow view of recovery as meaning 'Never looking at pictures of attractive women or MBing again'.
Today is Day Five. The latest in a long line of Day Fives, admittedly, but... it's been relatively easy to pick myself up, move on and get to this point without either beating myself up for slipping, or getting sucked into a week long binge. In fact, I've hardly given it a thought since Friday.
Undoubtedly, that is progress. Not bingeing is, in itself, a small success.
And, to put Day One into context as part of the bigger picture...
Out of the last 46 days, I have visited porn sites on one, and MBd on two (OK, so that wagon is proving a little trickier to get back on.
This is not really Day Five.
It's Day Three-hundred and twenty.
So what does that mean? I'm so rubbish at recovery that I have to keep starting again? Well, maybe, if you take the narrow view of recovery as meaning 'Never looking at pictures of attractive women or MBing again'.
Today is Day Five. The latest in a long line of Day Fives, admittedly, but... it's been relatively easy to pick myself up, move on and get to this point without either beating myself up for slipping, or getting sucked into a week long binge. In fact, I've hardly given it a thought since Friday.
Undoubtedly, that is progress. Not bingeing is, in itself, a small success.
And, to put Day One into context as part of the bigger picture...
Out of the last 46 days, I have visited porn sites on one, and MBd on two (OK, so that wagon is proving a little trickier to get back on.
This is not really Day Five.
It's Day Three-hundred and twenty.
posted by M386 at 8:10 pm
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