Confessional

It seems, on the surface, a simple thing: I've looked at porn. That's my sin, and that's what I need to confess.

But it runs deep. My Top Ten porn-related sins:

1. Lust - a desire for the forbidden, especially in terms of sex - is the obvious, and the bulk of the sin related to this disease.
2. Lying - or at least, deception; not telling the whole truth. Even now I am hiding this from my wife. Not because I want to carry on. Maybe out of fear of her reaction, maybe just shame. I don't think it is right to tell her yet. Can I, then, repent of this?
3. Pride could, of course, be behind the deception. However, if the last 12 months has taught me anything, it's that I can't change without God. I think I've got this one licked.
4. Rebellion. I am, mentally at least, rebelling against God's commands regarding sex. I am certainly rebelling against His wishes for my mind and body.
5. Idolatry. That's all porn is. I have idolised sex, forgetting about God as I search for gratification through porn.
6. Sexual sin - sexual activity outside of marriage. In my fantasies I have committed adultery. MB on my own can be seen as sexual activity outside of marriage.
7. Envy. I have envied the lifestyle, the constant sex, the seemingly endless supply of girls willing to strip off for our pleasure (and, apparently, theirs). The ease with which it seems you can make money doing that sort of thing.
8. So maybe there's some greed tied up in this too.
9. On Sunday I go to church like a good little Christian, hypocrite that I am.
10. And all I have gained from this is a few moments of selfish pleasure.
    

As of today, with God's help, I am turning away from all of these. No longer will I use my mind or my body for anything that does not glorify God. I've put distance between myself and God; I have put out the fire of His Spirit.

I ask, in Jesus name, for forgiveness and refreshing.