Pete Tong
It all went a bit wrong at the weekend...
The aforementioned sexual frustration, lack of sleep, stress of parenthood, trying to get my workload sorted after an effectively unplanned 2 week absence, all joined forces and crowded God out of my life. There are also issues in the home which are frustrating, but I have to let them go for the moment because my wife is also coming to terms with parenthood, and battling the baby blues (I don't think it's full on post-natal depression, but there are definite mood swings) and she needs me to be there to help when I can.
And where God gets crowded out, I seek escape in other ways. Porn. MB.
It is, perhaps, ironic that (although I don't have a problem with alcohol, and rarely drink more than a couple of beers anyway) I have been avoiding beer so I would be better able to look after the baby in the middle of the night or early mornings...
But that's not really the point. The point is that something triggered me, and I wasn't wise enough to spot it for what it was and leave quickly.
It was a long way short of the escapades of the past, but given the progress I had been making, it's disappointing.
I will re-focus. Take my eyes off the porn/recovery, and focus on the Lord and my Christian walk. The two are, after all, very much parallel.
The aforementioned sexual frustration, lack of sleep, stress of parenthood, trying to get my workload sorted after an effectively unplanned 2 week absence, all joined forces and crowded God out of my life. There are also issues in the home which are frustrating, but I have to let them go for the moment because my wife is also coming to terms with parenthood, and battling the baby blues (I don't think it's full on post-natal depression, but there are definite mood swings) and she needs me to be there to help when I can.
And where God gets crowded out, I seek escape in other ways. Porn. MB.
It is, perhaps, ironic that (although I don't have a problem with alcohol, and rarely drink more than a couple of beers anyway) I have been avoiding beer so I would be better able to look after the baby in the middle of the night or early mornings...
But that's not really the point. The point is that something triggered me, and I wasn't wise enough to spot it for what it was and leave quickly.
It was a long way short of the escapades of the past, but given the progress I had been making, it's disappointing.
I will re-focus. Take my eyes off the porn/recovery, and focus on the Lord and my Christian walk. The two are, after all, very much parallel.
posted by M386 at 11:09 am
1 Comments:
Thanks, Bilko.
And, from my experience, I think you've made a wise decision on MB. We can do this!
M
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