Clean?

I'm not sure as this is the first time I've recorded it, but I think this is the first time I've gone a whole month without visiting a porn site since I discovered their appeal.

Undoubtedly blogging my progress has helped; my mind works best with the written word, so these confessionals have been a cleansing process. But how clean am I?

Well, in one sense, I have truly repented; that is to say, having realised I should stop using porn, I made a conscious decision to stop and have followed through on that for a month now.

But I'm still carrying it in my head. I know there are girls I find really attractive that have got their kit off for all to see on the net, and that knowledge leads, inevitably, I guess, to the temptation to look at them. I need a mental de-tox to purge them from my head so the temptation goes away.

I guess that's one of the consequences I'll have to deal with though.

But - and this is where the whole thing seems worthwhile - I have felt God speaking to me again. He has reminded me that it is not wrong to find women attractive. It is not wrong to be tempted.

It is not wrong to be tempted.

My mind may need some work, but spiritually I'm clean. I'm clean enough for God, and if that's not good enough for anyone else, then :-P