Correction
For the sake of clearing my conscience, I'm not going to claim Friday was clean, as I said in my last post.
Truth is, although I didn't go the whole P&MB distance, I did allow the temptations brought on by the dream and a bit of work-related procrastination to get the better of me, and I played with fire. I found myself half-heartedly looking for websites with pretty girls that wouldn't count as porn...
But of course, they only 'don't count' in a technical sense; had I not wised up and stopped when I did, that spiral into binge porn would have started over again. Seeing what I did, of course, just heightened the existing temptations, and made the rest of the day that bit harder. Managed to hold out and not MB even having seen what I did, which is, even given the rest of it, good.
So: Friday was technically clean, no MB, no deliberate or excessive use of hard porn, but there was borderline stuff that shouldn't have gotten as far as it did.
The weekend has been clean in every sense, and has, I hope, cleared my head ready for the week.
Truth is, although I didn't go the whole P&MB distance, I did allow the temptations brought on by the dream and a bit of work-related procrastination to get the better of me, and I played with fire. I found myself half-heartedly looking for websites with pretty girls that wouldn't count as porn...
But of course, they only 'don't count' in a technical sense; had I not wised up and stopped when I did, that spiral into binge porn would have started over again. Seeing what I did, of course, just heightened the existing temptations, and made the rest of the day that bit harder. Managed to hold out and not MB even having seen what I did, which is, even given the rest of it, good.
So: Friday was technically clean, no MB, no deliberate or excessive use of hard porn, but there was borderline stuff that shouldn't have gotten as far as it did.
The weekend has been clean in every sense, and has, I hope, cleared my head ready for the week.
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