The journey (re)starts here

Yesterday's post came in the aftermath of a (albeit brief) stint of p/mb.

Afterwards, I cleared out my hard drive, and now run a porn-free PC (again). And I feel better. Just having the stuff there, knowing it was easily accessible, whether I intended to use it or not, had become an obstacle. However well it was hidden on my PC, if I tried to turn to God, it loomed large between us. There was no way I could reach God with that porn in the way, so I would settle for the porn instead.

Eventually the emptiness got too much. It sucked. In fact, it sucked the will to live right out of me, replacing it with the will to do more and nastier porn. The habit had me again. I may have turned back just in time.

I have some reparations to make with God, and the process may take some time, but I'm back in the fight now. The journey starts here.