I've been thinking too much...

On the higher-calling forums I have a Max Lucado quote in my signature:

Could it be that you are under attack - not because you are weak but because you might become so strong?

Reading that today reminded me of something. Last week, a couple of days before the temptations really clobbered me, I was out on business, and had the opportunity to have lunch on the beach. Just to turn my back on the world man has made and look out at the unspoilt ocean as God made it. Just to sit there, on my own, listening to the sea, and trying to reconnect with God.
Think back over those temptations today, I came to link them with that time on the beach.
Was that why I felt so tempted? Because I had started to move back towards God, and discover who I really was, beneath the recovering addict? Was it some futile attempt of the enemy to keep the addict in control? Could it, in fact, be that I was under attack precisely because I was starting to grow stronger?
That's the point of the quote, of course, to remind myself and my fellow strugglers that we will grow strong in the Lord if we resist the attack.
Yet it seems a little hard to believe that anything I can do would be that important. Why should keeping me in sin be that important to the devil? Can I really do anything that would be that important, that would hurt the enemy that much?
Of course, I can't, but in the Lord's strength...
I guess the question should be: What can God do with me that would be that important?
Well, I don't know. But, in God's grand tradition of pulling something good out of an otherwise bad day, those temptations and the thoughts that have followed them have led me to a realisation.
I want to know what the devil is trying to prevent. I want to find out what God can do with me.