Pregnancy problems

Not problems with Mrs 386 or Junior, but problems with my intended recovery, brought about by the pregnancy issue.

It's been almost 3 weeks since we had any sexual contact, due to tiredness, and the possible miscarriage scare of course. I'm happy with this; it's more important to me that mother and baby stay well.

But I've been MB free since March 31st, and the sexual tension is starting to tell. My wife has noticed, and told me she doesn't mind what I do to relieve it...

Obviously, she knows I wouldn't go and sleep with her sister or anything stupid like that.

She knows I like naked women. She knows I've bought Maxim, and seen porn movies. But I don't expect she meant me to go away and perv off on them all night.

She doesn't know the depths this addiction went to. She doesn't know that I no longer MB, or buy Maxim, or watch porn movies, not because I've outgrown them, but because I need to impose these rules on myself. She doesn't know I've made, and intend to keep, a deliberate promise to myself not to MB during April.

When she says she doesn't mind, I don't know exactly where she draws her lines. I can think of a few things that she would definitely disapprove of, but I can also think of a few grey areas. And I don't want to ask; if they're not as strict as my own (which, currently, are pretty damn strict) they may give me justification to act out, in however small a way.

At the moment, I'm holding out for some kind of sexual relief with my wife...