April

I've committed myself to staying clean for April.
I'd like to commit to longer - the nine weeks I almost managed, the 100 days some of the support board guys are going for - but at the moment, on Day One, I need to start smaller.
So April is my target at the moment. Here's what I'll be doing:

1. Staying away from all porn and other sources of temptation.
2. Not indulging in MB, sexual fantasy, or any remotely sexual activities unless my wife is with me.
3. Cutting back my online time to three sessions a day (for e-mailing, blogging and visiting the support board) unless specifically required for work.
4. Getting the hell away from the PC during my lunch break when working at home. This will probably entail physically leaving the house, which can't be a bad side effect anyway.
5. Continuing to question myself about the addiction and its causes, probably adding to yesterday's Q&A post.
6. Resume my reward system of £1 a day, and treat myself at the end of April. Since Buffy & Angel DVDs are coming out in miser-back editions for about £35, that will be my treat come May 5th.

As well as all this, I am going to increase my chances of success, I hope, by trying not to think of it in terms of 'avoiding porn', but rather to fill the gap porn has been occupying with more positive things. Especially, my relationship with God, which, to be 'real', will preclude porn use by default. So, in no particular order, I intend to:

1. Get my prayer life back on track.
2. Write something.
3. Read - the Bible, and some quality fiction.
4. Spend more quality time with my wife.

And then, I'll have got over the last few very rocky weeks, and be ready to tackle May...