I don't get it

There's no reason I can see for my behaviour recently.
The binge-feel crappy-purge cycle - total waste of time. What the f*ck is going on there?
And sex - that's been good lately. The sort of good that should leave me utterly without need for satisfaction elsewhere.
But since when did that matter to my addict?

I have other thoughts, but I'm minimising my time online (hence the week off) in an attempt to get a sober streak going in which to contemplate my deeper issues...

Of course, it hasn't entirely worked, but still... I'm checking out now.