Brand New Start

This time I am back.

It's been a while because, although things have been very up and down over the last month or so, I had strung together a respectable period of sobriety, and really didn't want to think about porn, at all.

But, perhaps inevitably, avoiding the subject just allowed it to sneak up on me, and earlier today it got the better of me.

So here I am, thinking about it, because I don't like how slipping, in however small a way, feels after avoiding it for a while. Today marks another brand new start. I don't know how many more there are going to be. I certainly can't guarantee this will be the last.

But, now life has returned to something like normality, I will try to get a plan working to avoid porn in the longer term.

In the meantime, it's a humbling thought, as I wallow in the post-porn muck, that this blog has been accused of being inspiring in my absence. Maybe, if I'd checked here before I found myself on the slippery slope, I would have stayed away. As it is, I feel anything but inspiring.

It's nice to be inspiring. Maybe I should try and stay clean a bit longer, in the hope of inspiring others? Or maybe just to avoid needing to beat myself up over failing.

OK, that's enough of that. Let's find the silver lining. I slipped, but I did not binge. I will not binge, as I have done on so many occasions.

Let sobriety start here.