Memories

This is a problem for me at the moment.

I've seen so much porn over the last few years that I shouldn't really need to go in search of more; I could just flick through my brain for half an hour instead. Obviously, doing so just makes me wonder what new and exciting developments I'm missing on the website I choose to remember....

I wish I could forget.

The Lord will not hear me if I hold on to sin in my heart. Psalm 66:18 (New Life Version)

It's not even just porn. It's my teenage fumblings. It's fantasies I've held on to into married life. It's every woman I've looked at twice. The brief pleasure gained from all these things has been burned into my mind, and part of me still hankers after the same feelings.

I'm holding onto those sins in my heart.

Father God, I have confessed my sins to you. I have asked for forgiveneess. I thank you that by your grace I know I am forgiven for those sins.
But there is another sin: enjoying the memories.
Lord, these memories serve no constructive purpose in my life; I want to turn away from them and turn my thoughts to you. Father, forgive me for hanging on to the memories. They are hard to relinquish. Lord, I commit my thoughts to You.
Please take these memories from my conscious thoughts, and help me never to call them up again. Help me to see my past sins as you do, and hate the memory of them.
Father God, continue the work you have started, of creating a pure heart in me.
In Jesus' name.
Amen