Here's a thing...
It's been almost 3 weeks since I last popped a porn pill, if only a few days mb-free.
But maybe that's enough to make me more aware of other things. Like... well, there's this young woman. Not somebody I know, but a passing acquaintance of my wife, and someone I may well have cause to be within leering distance of once or twice a week. And, yes, she ticks all my boxes, so to speak. Which is kind of unfortunate.
Essentially, there's nothing more to this than the fact that this person is quite attractive, to me at least. I know I'd never act on it, but I am increasingly aware of the fact that I notice her. Whenever I'm within leering distance. And I am concerned about this, not in case I get noticed noticing her, although that would be embarrassing, but because it means the lust monster in me has found (or is at least trying to find) another outlet.
Well, at least I'm onto him.
But maybe that's enough to make me more aware of other things. Like... well, there's this young woman. Not somebody I know, but a passing acquaintance of my wife, and someone I may well have cause to be within leering distance of once or twice a week. And, yes, she ticks all my boxes, so to speak. Which is kind of unfortunate.
Essentially, there's nothing more to this than the fact that this person is quite attractive, to me at least. I know I'd never act on it, but I am increasingly aware of the fact that I notice her. Whenever I'm within leering distance. And I am concerned about this, not in case I get noticed noticing her, although that would be embarrassing, but because it means the lust monster in me has found (or is at least trying to find) another outlet.
Well, at least I'm onto him.
posted by M386 at 3:53 pm
1 Comments:
Do whatever is neccecary to break this demonic stronghold over your mind. One thing you should do is not call this your weakness (even though it is a weakness) but call it a devil's stronghold. By doing this you will think of it as something that isn't yours and you have to get rid of no matter what.
Another thing is to fast and even a partial fast. its a good thing to always have a little physical hunger.
You can call it a diet or whatever you want but The partial fast i'm on consists of an orange when I first wake up and fresh fruits and vegatables through out the day and on my breaks at work and after work one plate of normaal food close to the end of the day. I always have a little hunger but the weakest part of the day for hunger I fill it. If you have emtieness in your stomach you will want to fill that void with something, choose to seek God and His Word. A full stomach tends tward you not neading anything meaning God. You have a wife make a choice to see her as the most beautiful thing even if she is imperfect.
One thing about many people who are never satisfied sexualy is that they don't put the pleasure of the other person way ahead of their oun. If you are one of those people this is another aria you need to change in your mind. prayer will help more than anything else.
I've never been addicted to porn but the devil is an archetect out to design different strongholds for whoever is open.
Don't take this as condemning but the scripture came to mind:
(look up Psalm 18:25,26)
God knows your heart and where you are right now but don't play games with God and if you keep failing get back up and keep on keeping on.
I'm not neccecarely better behaved than a few nonchristians, i'm just forgiven and there not. (that still doesn't ever make sin ok in me but I keep on pressing on to who God wants me to be.) don't let the devil condemn you. Keep your focus on Jesus.
May as well include this, find a good church and go even if you aren't comfortable especialy if you know the presance of God is there this may be one of the most important things for you to overcome this stronghold. being convicted of sin is a good thing and God will recognise your sincerity/ motives for going to church. (I talk from experience, when your in sin you can't hear the voice of God and all you can do is go through the religious motians and that is a good thing if that is all you can do God sees it for what it is (and it can take a long time of doing that) but God sees what you do and knows your true motives even if you don't.
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