Thoughts for a Friday

Something needs to be said here. I'm not sure what it is, but... well, here's what happened.

Since my last post, I have found temptation harder to battle. I think I weakened my defences with MB, then that dream came along, and... I can't even remember what triggered me, but yesterday I just jumped in. I went into full-on binge mode, and spent practically the whole day up to my neck in porn. Ugh.

Then this morning, I log on to find that a new comment has been added here. That has raised some serious conflict of emotion. When I first read it, it was great. That any woman read that post and went to the trouble of adding that reply means a whole lot.

It did, however, make me feel a whole lot worse about yesterday. (Which is no more than I deserve, of course.) Having said that, I think drawing my attention back to that post might have reminded me what it is I'm fighting here. That's who I have been, and I don't like that person. It's time to redouble my efforts and finally become who I was meant to be.

Rose, if you're reading, thanks. You may have given me a kick up the backside when I most needed it. And all because we both read Stephen King. Gotta love those mysterious ways, huh?