The Young Exhibitionists Club

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I was 14 when I discovered masturbation, and feeling a bit of a late developer, I tried to make up for lost time and quickly got hooked on it. I did it anywhere and everywhere. The urinals in the school toilets were a spot I tried a couple of times. There were secluded spots in and around the neighbourhood where I could go on a dark evening.

My first remotely sexual experience with a girl was outdoors, in a quiet, but nonetheless public, place. Although the reason for this was to avoid getting caught, the whole outdoors/in public theme has been repeated, no doubt related to those early experiments.

As teenagers, a group of us often talked about playing strip poker. I think the main reason it stayed talk was that none of us could actually play poker, but had that not been the case, would I have done it? I think I might have felt a bit self-conscious displayed next to some of my male friends, but I think I might have done. I certainly didn't feel self-conscious among the girls in our group at the time.

So, whether it's the possibility of getting caught, the feel of a fresh breeze, or just showing what I'd got, something about all this makes me feel good. It adds to the normal sexual thrill.

Perhaps this is how porn stars feel. Perhaps, on this level, I relate to them. I understand why these girls (and guys) are doing it.

I think they enjoy it, because I think I would enjoy it.