Somebody stop that wagon!
I reckon it had to happen at some point. I'm a bit disappointed that it came so soon after my big repentence speech, but hey, I'm only human.
It was actually plain old boredom that did it. I had work to do, but I was bored with it, and padding it out to fill the day wasn't an attractive option. So I got through it quickly, and found myself sat at my PC, bored... and managed to find some models websites that weren't picked up by the parental controls.
The temptation was to say hang it all, I’ve earnt plenty of credit in the last five weeks, a bit of a blowout now can’t cancel that out, can it?
So in the last 24 hours I went through a couple of cycles of downloading some (fairly soft) images, realising what I was doing and deleting them all before I'd really got into them, and then going back and doing it again...
And I found something harder still lurking on an old back-up CD I had knocking around too.
So, I fell off the wagon. There was the potential to make the most of it, let the wagon roll off into the sunset while I dove into the porn thing properly, but I did manage to stop myself, made sure I had completely deleted all traces of porn, got up and ran hell for leather after the wagon.
Getting back on might not be as easy as it was originally, but the fact that I stopped and stepped away from it so soon is a good sign. However, only time will tell whether the obsession/addiciton has got hold of me again.
It was actually plain old boredom that did it. I had work to do, but I was bored with it, and padding it out to fill the day wasn't an attractive option. So I got through it quickly, and found myself sat at my PC, bored... and managed to find some models websites that weren't picked up by the parental controls.
The temptation was to say hang it all, I’ve earnt plenty of credit in the last five weeks, a bit of a blowout now can’t cancel that out, can it?
So in the last 24 hours I went through a couple of cycles of downloading some (fairly soft) images, realising what I was doing and deleting them all before I'd really got into them, and then going back and doing it again...
And I found something harder still lurking on an old back-up CD I had knocking around too.
So, I fell off the wagon. There was the potential to make the most of it, let the wagon roll off into the sunset while I dove into the porn thing properly, but I did manage to stop myself, made sure I had completely deleted all traces of porn, got up and ran hell for leather after the wagon.
Getting back on might not be as easy as it was originally, but the fact that I stopped and stepped away from it so soon is a good sign. However, only time will tell whether the obsession/addiciton has got hold of me again.
posted by M386 at 5:08 pm
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