Journey's End
Despite recent slips, I believe the journey out of porn has ended.
I may still slip, but I'm wise enough to recognise when I do, and I haven't really been on a binge for some time. I really believe there has been progress, and that I have changed. My view of myself, my view of acceptable behaviour, my opinion of porn; all have changed more in the last year than any of the previous eighteen or so since I discovered MB.
I'm not free; not by a country mile. Porn still has a grip on part of me, but it's a weakening grip. I can ignore it, most of the time. But there is work to be done.
And it starts by me making a fresh start. I am stepping out of internet anonymity, and back into the real world.
The journey out of porn may have ended, but the journey into God is just beginning.
I may still slip, but I'm wise enough to recognise when I do, and I haven't really been on a binge for some time. I really believe there has been progress, and that I have changed. My view of myself, my view of acceptable behaviour, my opinion of porn; all have changed more in the last year than any of the previous eighteen or so since I discovered MB.
From here on, I am on a new page. Over the two years this blog has been running, I have got to know my demons. I know when they're likely to strike, and I know what sort of stick I will need to fight them off.
I'm not free; not by a country mile. Porn still has a grip on part of me, but it's a weakening grip. I can ignore it, most of the time. But there is work to be done.
And it starts by me making a fresh start. I am stepping out of internet anonymity, and back into the real world.
The journey out of porn may have ended, but the journey into God is just beginning.
posted by M386 at 1:08 pm
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